Understand.

I always wonder what will I do in this world, how will I make a difference for people, and how will I save lives? or help them. Sometimes late at night i think about all the things that have been, all the things that haven't been, and all the things yet to come. If my heart could explode into a billion tiny pieces and scatter themselves all around the world. I wonder if the world will ever make sense to me, if I will truly ever understand anything, and if there's really anything to understand at all. I think about all the nice things, bad things, everything I've done so far and I just hope I can make a difference. I wonder if anyone else, just lays awake at night. And think about any of the stuff I think about. If you do just wait, one day this cruel, messed up world will make sense, or at least I hope.